“The human spirit will not even begin to try to surrender self-will as long as all seems to be well with it… But pain insists upon being attended to. God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pain: it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world.” — C.S. Lewis
This quote jumped out at me like that “megaphone” because of how true it is. It was for me, at least. I’ve been deaf before, totally ignoring pain until it yelled loud enough and woke me from my deafness saying DEAL WITH ME.
It’s kinda like how you can be driving along and all of a sudden come to a stoplight and realize your mind had completely tuned out and you can’t remember how you got there? Scary actually.
Pain is a wake up call that you can’t tune out. No matter what kind, physical or emotional, it can’t be ignored for long or suffering results.
I’ve come to the end of my “self-will” two major times; one spiritual and one physical. I’m not going to re-write what’s been written before, but this truth about God shouting in our pain just tugged at me. I’m seeing my story from another vantage point and the view is eye opening. I never realized that pain could be God yelling with His “LET ME HELP YOU OUT OF YOUR MESS” kind of LOVE just waiting for me to let Him do it and free me from it.
To be deaf to the voice of God leaves one to wander through life, stopping here and there, but never really getting to a destination. A spot-on Biblical example of wandering around in circles is, of course, the Children of Israel. God made it so very clear to them where they were headed…the promised land for goodness sake, a land flowing with milk and honey! Although He spoke very loudly (i.e. cloud by day, pillar by night), provided for their needs (i.e. manna to eat, water from a rock, clothing that didn’t wear out, etc.) saved them from Pharaoh’s army and slavery in Egypt (i.e. sent all those plagues and parted the Red Sea!) YET their complaints made them deaf to God’s help and plan. Thus they wandered in circles for 40 years and all but two never made it to their destination…that promised land!
No More Circles
God, help me to stop at your whispers and not turn a deaf ear until it’s pain that has to speak. Let my choices be to listen and act so that I come to my destination, an overcoming place, and not wander in circles. I’ve been there – done that far too many times. Even today my choice led to some physical pain, a choice to feed my face too much of the wrong thing and I’m paying the price in pain right now. I turned a deaf ear to your voice. Fail…
I may be feeling the effects of my choice at the moment, but God is a Good God and He doesn’t condemn… Romans 8 says very clearly “Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus…” Thank God for that!
So then…ummm, this too shall “pass” and I’ll feel better…soon.
In the mean time, this girl is hanging a left and headed…in a very straight line.